a day off!!

I got called this morning letting me know that I would not need to come in due to rain so Aaron and I caught up on some chores and I recovered two chairs!
We found them sitting next to our apartment's dumpster, it's crazy the stuff people throw away here!
I used some fabric I had left over from making a purse a while ago. It's not the permanent fabric for them, but they needed something ASAP and this was the most sturdy of my collection.
Here's the before and after :)

I'm not sure why, but this much i know is true, even in all my relying on God since we have moved here i have been avoiding Him. Much like you would when you see some one from high school and you duck out to the next aisle. some times if you are lucky you can avoid them altogether and they are none the wiser. sometimes they totally see you and then a new level of awkwardness is added to the situation when they now know you were trying to avoid them despite your now compensational over enthusiasm. 

well i got caught, although it's not like He doesn't see me hiding in the depends aisle knowing full well i am  hoping that i could just disappear and have this encounter later when i am more prepare and i have my life more together. or even better not at all and we can just keep going on like this.

 

but the truth is i miss Him and i need him and my heart has forgotten what it feels like to have my blood pumping so fast it drowns out all thoughts other than Him. i slowly tricked myself into believing that because i was relying on him to pay the bills and make our lives work that i was still in touch with him. but the truth is i was no more in touch than i am with the ATM machine. i would show up when i needed something. but until i needed something else we didn't see each other. 

i feel like spring is here and thawing my frozen dead heart. 

i went to the women's retreat for Morningstar and i was reminded for like the millionth time to "read my bible and pray more" it seems the older i get the more significant that phrase has become to me and it sounds less and less trite as it did to my just entering high school brain.

i didn't come back from the retreat "refreshed" or "more passionate about the Lord" even though those are great feelings and how i usually return. this time i have purpose and resolve pulsating in my body. like my limbs have the extra oompf they need to propel my body towards the things of the Lord. i got a taste of the "Bible Bubble" and saw how far i was from it. i'm tired of mediocrity and settling. i desire to know MY LORD and be close to Him again. so this is a time of drawing near. fighting to get back to Him.

"Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O LORD, my strength and my Redeemer." Psalm 19:14